Prepare my mind in English

I'd better have some practises of writing in English as English A2 Exam is around the corner, the day after tomorrow, to be more precise. Honestly, I seldom speak English since I came to ACSI. Being in the Chinatown, everyone speaks Chinese to PRC scholars. Even our class teacher, E Bong, who is a English teacher herself. I am not sure whether I should continue to take A2 or drop to B. At first, I just want to have a try first. Than I got a sheer luck, getting a narrow 6 for common test. I don't know whether it is a blessing or challenge. Now, I am totally lost. EB is such a slacker who will be on MC for three out of five lessons. and even in the only two left, we will gossip all the way through. I don't know whether I have achieved anything during this year's study. On the other hand, the reason for me not willing to go to English B class is because English B is even easier than O level. Most people (China ppl) can get a seven easily. Yeah, a word comes to my mind: dilemma. What should I do? What should I do if I do well this time? And what should I do then if I screw-up? Totally clueless now. I really think it is damn important to pluck up my English. But then I m not sure if EB is able to help me. maybe I will be more self motivated if I m in the A2 class. but B is so easy and which idiot does not want a sure 7 for his final grade? BUT! But it seems that IB pays more attention to our HL subjects. So SL is not that important? Errrr? Moreover, A2 is good for my SAT, er? A2 is good for my universitiy life,is it? Will it be beneficial for my Uni admission then? Aiyoyo.

I read ChenDavid's blog yesterday. there s a "response"----an English compo I m afraid. he was trying to talk about his opinions on sth. he claimed that he had spent 3 hrs on it. I wonder how long he had spent on flipping through the dictionary, or clicking jinshanciba. that is e most chim text i ve ever read. hence i think maybe i really should admit that language can affect ppl's reasoning and emotion. one cannot use english to express his chinese emo. even shakespeare cant write such profound piece!

Oh yeah, The reason for me to sit in front of my laptop and type these nonsense at this point of time is because I AM HOT! The weather sucks! Recently, the inhumanly weather has totally ruined my good impression for Singapore's tropical oceanic climate (What is that?). I seldom sweat in the day since I moved here this year. But for these two weeks only I began to sweat like mad coz the weather is crazy! I cannot concentrate in the daytime. I took some actions yesterday, sleeping in the afternoon and mug until 5am this morning. Midnight is such a constuctive time for studying!!!(seems I said this b4 already?) I slept from 5 to 8. But today I unreasonably just cannot fall asleep in the afternoon. ....bcs of the heat... 　

NO More Slacking, Start Doing Something!

pi sent me senior junbo's blog. n i just knew he couldnt make it to the us. omg, i thought he was perfect though. he has so much ec... i can see what the narrow chance i stand now. sad.
he is in nus. n not seems to be happy.
here it goes:

......Ever since i stepped into the NUS campus, I started to feel a great sense of inferiority and the undescribable resistance to be there. ... ...It seems that I have lost my goals and there is nothing for me to fight for! ......
I start to think seriously about my future. Am I going to be just an ordinary engineer working dirt hard to get 3K or 5K a month and worrying about bread and butter? Or am I going to be an ordinary person with simple and contented life? Or am i going to make a difference and rise above the ordinary? The answer is rather clear! Having been growing up under high expections and praises all the time, I have few options but to show others that I am capabable of achieving more.

I need to wake up from my dreams and start something! I shall keep on reminding myself that I am a NUS student, same as those from poly and other JCs. And I am going to make the best out of my days in NUS. .......

n here s pp 's comment:
exactly the same things happened to me after i left rj... i had my fondest memories there and almost everything related to Njc saddens my heart and triggers my cynicism. and the worst thing that could ever happen is to suddenly lose the goals and motivations...

what his friends said:

"短期内别去看那些在英国或美国大学的朋友的blog。其实不论在NUS或在US,UK，同样有着不顺心或精彩刺激" 在这边的生活并不是一帆风顺的，像我这样的往往喜欢把快乐的照片刊登出来，说是有globalization，但是shock是绝无可避免的，cultural shock，周围环境的shock，美国人情的淡薄（就像facebook/friendster那样的典型美国君子之交淡如水——你能认识很多人，你们之间也许表面上很热情，但是需要帮助的时候还是指望自己人吧），文化的巨大差异，并不是多看美国电影能简单悟出来的。很多人来美国之前都有他们的hopes, dreams and expectations，但来到这边之后发现很多事物都与想象中的不一样（想象为何物？无非你在电影中、传媒中对其肤浅的印象加上自己的想象力而已），一句话，无论身在何方，保持乐观，发扬公教时候的拼搏精神，梦想总会实现的。

“人生就像一副牌，其意义不在于得到一副好牌，而在于怎么把一副坏牌打好”

another one:
...从rjc survive 的 scholars 最怕的不是繁重的学业或忙碌的课外活动，不是任何难以完成的任务，最怕的是找不到自己的目标和奋斗的方向。
虽然不甘心end up NUS，但是很多时候必须为了自己肩上的义务和责任，考虑自己的背景和情况做出牺牲和退步。何况NUS也有很多它的长处：你不用花1，2年去适应周围的环境；周围的朋友能够在各方面给你帮助；大学里有各种各样丰富的资金，可以让你不花父母一分钱，不用外出打工的情况下参加很多活动；比较靠近中国，可以随时回家看望照顾父母。等等等等。。。既来之则安之。充分的剥削NUS的一切资源才对得起自己。
没有机会在学校里看到你，给你几条我的学长给我的建议：
1. 多参加各种活动，忙碌的生活让人没时间去抱怨，去颓废。
2. 短期内别去看那些在英国或美国大学的朋友的blog。其实不论在NUS或在US,UK，同样有着不顺心或精彩刺激，不同的是在UK,US得人喜欢在blog里强调美化自己周围的生活，而在NUS的人则总是喜欢抱怨和批评，而忽略身边的精彩。
......

Fall in love with S11

Recently, I fall in love with S11.

The differences between rich and poor. 　　
1、 自我认知 　　　　
穷人：很少想到如何去赚钱和如何才能赚到钱，认为自己一辈子就该这样，不相信会有什么改变。 　　　　
富人：骨子里就深信自己生下来不是要做穷人，而是要做富人，他有强烈的赚钱意识，这也是他血液里的东西，他会想尽一切办法使自己致富。 　　　　
2、休闲 　　　　
穷人：在家看电视，为肥皂剧的剧情感动得痛苦流涕，还要仿照电视里的时尚来武装自己。 　　　　
富人：在外跑市场，即使打高耳夫球也不忘带者项目合同。
3、交际圈子 　　　　
穷人：喜欢走穷亲戚，穷人的圈子大多是穷人，也排斥与富人交往，久而久之，心态成了穷人的心态，思维成了穷人的思维，做出来的是也就是穷人的模式。大家每天谈论着打折商品，交流着节约技巧，虽然有利于训练生存能利，但你的眼界也就渐渐囿于这样的琐事，而将雄心壮志消磨掉了。 　　　　
4、学习 　　　　
穷人：学手艺 　　　　
富人：学管理 　　　　
5、时间 　　　　
穷人：一个享受充裕时间的人不可能赚大钱，要想悠闲轻松就会失去更多赚钱的机会。穷人的时间是不值钱的，有时甚至多余，不知道怎么打发,怎么混起来不烦。如果你可以因为买一斤白菜多花了一分钱而气恼不已。却不为虚度一天而心痛，这就是典型的穷人思维。
富人：一个人无论以何种方式赚钱，也无论钱挣得是多还是少，都必须经过时间的积淀。富人的玩也是一种工作方式，是有目的的。富人的闲，闲在身体，修身养性，以利在战，脑袋一刻也没有闲着；穷人的闲，闲在思想，他手脚都在忙，忙着去麻将桌上多摸几把。
6、归属感 　　　　
穷人：是颗螺丝钉。穷人以为出身卑微，却少安全感，就迫切地希望自己从属于并依赖于一个团体，于是他们以这个团体的标准为自己的标准，让自己的一切合乎规范，为团体的利益而工作，奔波，甚至迁徙。对于穷人来说，在一个著名的企业里稳定的工作几十年，有实习生一直干到高级主管,那简直是美得不能在美的理想。 　　　　
富人：那些团体的领导者通常都是富人，他们总是一方面向穷人灌输：团结就是力量，如果你不从属于自己的团体，你就什么都不是，一名不文。.但另一方面，他们却从来没有停止过招兵买马，培养新人，以便随时可以把你替换掉。 　　　　
7、投资及对待财富 　　　　
穷人：经济观点就是少用等于多赚，比如开一家面馆，收益率是100%，投入2万，一年就净赚2万，对于穷人来说很不错了。穷人即使有钱，也舍不得拿出来，即使终于下定决心投资，也不愿意冒风险，最终还是走不出那一步。穷人最津津乐道的就是鸡生蛋，蛋生鸡，一本万利......但是建筑在一只母鸡身上的希望毕竟是那样的脆弱。
富人：富人的出发点是万本万利。同样的开面馆，富人们会想，一家面馆承载的资本只有2万，如果有一亿资金，岂不是要开 5000家面馆？要一个一个管理好，大老板得操多少心，累白多少根头发呀？还不如投资宾馆。一个宾馆就足以消化全部的资本，哪怕收益率只有20%，一年下来也有2000万利润啊。 　　　　
8、激情　　　　
穷人：没有激情。他总是按部就班，很难出大错，也绝对不会做到最好。没有激情就无法兴奋，就不可能全心全意投入工作。大部分的穷人不能说没有激情，看他的激情总是消耗在太具体的事情上：上司表扬了，他会激动；商店打折，他会激动；电视里破镜重圆了，他的眼泪一传一串往下流，穷人有的只是一种情绪。 　　　　
富人：“燕雀安知鸿鹄之志?王侯将相,宁有种乎“?有这样的激情，穷人终将不是穷人！激情是一种天性，是生命力的象征，有了激情才有了灵感的火花，才有了鲜明的个性，才有了人际关系中的强烈感染力，也才有了解决问题的魄力和方法。 　　　　
9、自信 　　　　
穷人：穷人的自信要通过武装到牙齿，要通过一身高级名牌的穿戴和豪华的配置才能给他们带来更多的自信，穷人的自信往往不是发自内心和自然天成的。 　　　　
富人：李嘉成在谈到他的经营秘诀时说：“其实也没什么特别的，光景好时，决不过分乐观；光景不好时，也不过度悲观“。其实就是一种富人特有的自信。自信才能不被外力所左右，自信才可能有正确的决定。 　　　　
10、习惯 　　　　
穷人：有个故事，一个富人送给穷人一头牛。穷人满怀希望开始奋斗。可牛要吃草，人要吃饭，日子难过。穷人于是把牛卖了，买了几只羊,吃了一只，剩下来的用来生小羊.可小羊迟迟没有生出来，日子有艰难了。穷人把羊卖了，买成了鸡，想让鸡生蛋赚钱为生，但是日子并没有改变，最后穷人把鸡也杀了，穷人的理想彻底崩溃了，这就是穷人的习惯。
富人：根据一个投资专家说，富人成功的秘诀就是：没钱时，不管多困难，也不要动用投资和储蓄，压力会使你找到赚钱的新方法，帮你还清帐单。这是个好习惯。性格决定了习惯，习惯决定了成功。
11、上网 　　　　
穷人：上网聊天。　　
富人：找投资机会。富人上网，更多的是利用网络的低成本高效率，寻找更多的投资机会和项目，把便利运用到自己的生意中来。 　　　　

do i want to marry sb rich n become a taitai? nope!
首先，职业和婚姻是人生两个并列的重要内容，而“全职太太”却合二为一，把情感归属和职业混为一体。就像战争期间，男人在前方冲锋陷阵，女人在后方负责供给。因为女人不直接杀敌，所以要借助男人来分享收益。军功章里有你的一半，也有我的一半，但事实上又有谁记得我的一半呢？这是做“全职太太”最大的成本———不直接产生社会效益，必须通过男人这个中介被社会承认。
　　其次，再没有什么比家务劳动更单调、枯燥的了。灰尘永远擦不完，衣服洗干净了又变脏，还有每天重复的一日三餐，很少有人能从这些工作中获得乐趣。而且更糟糕的是，你从工作中所获得的经验不具备连续性，一旦被“炒鱿鱼”，就得一切从零开始。你总不能在履历表上写“曾做过某人全职太太、成绩优异”，然后出具一份由前夫签字的书面证明吧。这是做“全职太太”的第二大成本———跳槽的机会比较小。
　　第三，有调查表明，被“全职太太”照顾的男人，外遇的机会比较多。成功的男人更容易吸引美女的眼球，尤其是在家里的那个曾经美丽的女人已经褪色的时候。而这时候，你只能保持沉默。若想反抗，结局只有一个———离婚。而离婚，对一个40岁、已经把全部青春和热情都贡献给自己婚姻的女人，你让她拿什么重新开始呢？
　　最后，就算这些都没发生，在最好的情况下———夫妻恩爱、没有外遇、没有婚变、一切顺遂，婚姻的成功依然无法代替事业的成功。从古至今，没有一个女人是因为婚姻成功而被世人承认、载入史册的。作为自然人，你可能是幸福的。作为社会人，你没有自己的作品、自己的舞台，甚至没有自己的称呼，你是作为某某人的太太———一个附属品而不是自己存在。对一名知识女性来说，人生的悲哀莫大于此。

i think we'd better work together.
1、做你真正感兴趣的事——你会花很多时间在上面，因此你一定要感兴趣才行，如果不是这样的话，你不愿意把时间花在上面，就得不到成功。
2、自己当老板。为别人打工，你绝不会变成巨富，老板一心一意地缩减开支，他的目标不是使他的职员变成有钱人。
3、提供一种有实效的服务，或一种实际的产品。你要以写作、绘画或作曲变成百万富翁的机会可以说是无限小，而你要在营造业、房地产、制造业发大财的机会比较大。记住，出版商赚的钱比作家多得多。
4、找出一种需要，然后满足它。社会越变越复杂，人们所需要的产品和服务越来越多，最先发现这些需求而且满足他们的人，是改进现有产品和服务的人，也是最先成为富翁的人。
5、不要一直都想着发大财，不如你想想如何改进你的事业，您应该常常问自己的是：“我如何改良我的事业？”如何使事业进行顺利，财富就会跟着而来。
6、关系。
7、必须先牺牲家庭和社会上的娱乐，直到你事业站稳为止。也只有到那时候，你才能把责任分给别人。
8、不要不敢自己下决心。
9、不要不敢说实话。拐弯抹角，只会浪费时间，心里想什么就说什么，而且要尽可能地直截了当地、明确地说出来。
10、不要不敢承认自己的错误。犯了错误并不是一种罪行，犯错不改才是罪过。
11、不要因为失败就裹足不前。失败是难免的，也是有价值的，从失败中，你会学到正确的方法论。
12、不要冒你承担不起的风险。
13、好好维持你的健康和你的平静心灵——否则的话，拥有再多的钱也没有什么意思。

Promo is coming coming ming ing ing g g g

final year exam!
mugging!

TOK presentation

!!!Painstakingly, i exerted my utmost effort, working my heart out!!!
Finally I have finished TOK. And it can be considered as satisfactory. The only worry is that the presentation might be overtime. But I have spent so much time on it that every slide has my blood on it. I just cant delete any of them. So die die must rascally and shamelessly finish the whole thing！

Good news! Tiger airline has route to Xiamen! Everyday has a flight and the schedule is nice. But for Nov holiday I still fly with xiamen airline as I paid 200 bucks to book the ticket already.

i m not happy

So just stay in nus or ntu. Trapped in Singapore.
at least its better that minjiang xueyuan or wuyi xueyuan etc.
Can I call it a target, a dream, or a desire, or a wild wish?
Feeling down.

good or no good

first of all the rankings, especially london times one which placed NUS at 18th and 22th for the past 2 years, are crap. the ranking methodology is largely based on the % international students and strength of the faculty (e.g. research citations). % international students is not exactly a gd guage of educational quality or even the social exposure a student would get at the school... like, Harvard has say 10% international students and NUS has 20%, does that make NUS any better than Harvard? Besides, that 20% is predominantly made up of students from countries in the region, like China, India and Indonesia. Not much of diversity to speak of really. As for the faculty, I am rather suprised that NUS faculty is considerably active in the academic arena. But then again, being the only comprehensive university in Singapore, most of the academic research done in Singapore must be in some ways affiliated to the NUS professors, so there. Besides, research is one thing, teaching is another. The way of teaching, or at least I imagine to be so, is still very much of a one-way thing. The quality of the students is perhaps another problem. Every year, most of the brighest in the nation end up flying to UK, US and lately, China, which leaves NUS - arguably the best university in Singapore - with hardly any share of the nation's top students (less Medicine students I guess). Perhaps the worst thing is the rigidity in curriculum. Dual degree or rather, double majors across different faculties, is virtually impossible except for options offered by the university. i can only think of econs + law and physics and material engineering, then again u need 5 freaking years to complete them. The dual degree programs take in maybe 10 to 20 students a year - the chances of entry are hardly on my side.And of course, no matter how good NUS (or NTU or SMU for that matter) may be, the pasture always seems greener on the other side!

there is nothing about NUS that i absolutely cannot tolerate - i just want a different experience. that said, i don't think NUS will shortchange anyone in terms of academics at the undergraduate level at least.

End of holiday

I m exhausted. The September holiday has come to the end. I have not done anything useful until now. Math portfolio still has one question unfinished and TOK discussion is postponed again. I m just complaining here. I think hopefully I can finish the maths thing today. Unlikely to have any TOK done by today as I think xyue is also the kind of slacker.
I chatted with chentangent on QQ last night. I sent him our last math port, the fish population series and sequence one. He said he had to "look at me with new eyes". He couldn’t understand most of it. And I found out that in china’s high sch they haven’t learnt cubic equation or matrix which we have studied in secondary school already. Chentangent is learning matrix by himself at the moment as it is the topic they need to know in the second year of their university. Although I know that what we have learnt in Singapore are those extremely basic stuffs but I still can’t help to feel cocky and feel like showing off something…
Chentangent is in Fujianyida. So is Yexiao. I envy them. The dream of becoming a doctor will never come true in the rest of my life. But I will still have a chance if I go back now and sit for Gaokao one or two years later. But it is not worthy and MMao always says that being a doctor in china is miserable. Half of her university school-mates (fifty out of one hundred) have left for the US. They got in the medical school in America and started all over. But I am still very doubtful how could they manage to raise their school fees and daily allowance. They couldn’t be rich enough and having part time job won’t earn much no matter how hard they worked. It is medical school man! All these remain mysterious. i guess the competition 30years ago is not as tough as now. Maybe I can talk to some of my mum’s friends in the USA later to find out.

Words to remember

An email forwarded to me by dongyidian. Some messages to MM. These are my favourate.
把那些浮如飘絮的思绪，渐渐转化为清晰的思路和简单的文字。华丽和漂浮都不易长久。要知道，给予文字阅读快感是不够的，内容，思想，境界，灵魂，精神和智慧，这些才重要。 　　　　　　
不要琐碎，无病呻吟。不要想到什么就写。 不要流于小感伤和小感动。
要相信温暖，美好，信任，尊严，坚强这些老掉牙的字眼。不要颓废，空虚，迷茫，糟践自己，伤害别人。
要有强大的内心。要有任凭时间流逝，不会磨折和屈服的信念。 　　　　　　 　
记得常常仰望天空。记住仰望天空的时候也看看脚下。

A good day

Today is a happy day. Fruitful, I did not study at all. But I book the air ticket. The fare is quite acceptable as finally xiamen air line has student tickets and the flights are scheduled to the days instead of leaving and arriving in the middle of the night. In addition, I bought a “die biang” (fried oyster and pork I supposed). It tastes nice but I just wonder it would be better if they put less meat. And we met a couple in Chinatown. Xwy and Jjd. Xie and Tang are good friends in rj and jia is my current classmate. We met twice on the road. Then we met again in a Lanzhou Ramen store. At first, Tang and I decided to go to this store but we want to see some other shops first. But after coming back, we saw two of them sitting inside. Omg, that is purely coincident! Thus why we did not have Lanzhou ramen today.

English matters

Now, it is 1:21 in the middle of the night. I m not burning the midnight oil as I slept quite a lot in the day. Today is another fruitless day for me as I only read a bit of the animal farm guide book. About half of the book. And I have read the lord of the flies. (I have reached a point that I decided not to read on anymore to leave some as time killer at school when there is recess or free period without teachers.) I used to read the lord of the flies. That was after my sec 3 final year exam. I swore that if I didn’t finish the book within maybe five days I would fail my English and I couldn’t go back early. I finished reading then. Unfortunately, I really did not understand a single thing except that I was aware about the book’s content was about a group of boys isolated on an island, killing one another. I always thought that the boys were all dead. But indeed, the got rescued. I m so sorry about this. The same thing happens on my experience when I read the English teacher and a miserable world. Actually, all these classics are wonderful books but I was too stupid to appreciate them.

A quote from the cover of my BARRON’s 3500 SAT WORDS LIST notebook: Althought the distance between will space out us, may we remrmber our true friendship and blessing. Every time I see the notebook, this ridiculous sentence should remind me of the importance of speaking good English’s importance.
Yeah, I watched a documentary on Jackie Chan yesterday. And I found out that he is really a unlearned person who only received his education in an Chinese traditional opera and acrobatic school. His English is extremely lousy. It is very hard to imagine that such a super star who has a great impact on Hollywood has such bad standard in English speaking. I think he makes 2 mistakes for every 5 words he speaks. When he is being interviewed, he answers the questions with dramatically huge body gestures. He is able to convey his ideas to the audiences through simple worlds and actions. Anyway, I think he is forgivable. He is always on a Chinese route that project the image of a typical Chinese man to the west. Hence it is normal for a Chinese not knowing English. The Americans should not be too critical about this. And he did not have the chance to have proper education. Very likely that he learnt English all by himself in some Chinatown in Australia. Jackie Chan is an exemption. However, for the others, good speeches can give other a good first and many many good impressions about the capabilities and characters of that person. Speaking English is a kind of basic skill for existence. Thus why I die die must improve!

Ok, I will publish this post tomorrow. Good nite!

I am who I want to be

Now, I m doing my math port. Last time, the fish population one I got 15 out of 20 ( which is below average by 0.5). I should make some improvement this time.

Listening to Faye Wong's songs at e same time. I once read a tread in RongShuXia talked abt e similarities that ppl who like Faye Wong shared. It is accurate to some extent. But some are absolutely invalid!
1：喜欢王菲的人渴望引人注意，却又不喜欢抛头露面。 　　
2：喜欢王菲的人都有点自恋。喜欢镜子，喜欢自拍。 　　
3：喜欢王菲的人不善于表达自己的情感。但时不时冒一句，语出惊人。 　　
4：喜欢王菲的人不管表面多酷，却有一颗童真的心。 　　
5：喜欢王菲的人做事情要么就不做，要么就做的最好。 　　
6：喜欢王菲的人讨厌虚伪，不会撒谎。 　　
7：喜欢王菲的人很自我。 　　
8：喜欢王菲的人性格很矛盾。喜欢孤单，却又害怕寂寞。 　　
9：喜欢王菲的人思想还满前卫的。 　　
10：喜欢王菲的人很多有同性恋倾向。
Throughout these years, I m searching for my own identity. n I realised that it may vary with time.

The torch of Hymen

Foreword
“美好的新加坡之旅结束了！感触很多啊！恐怕三天三夜也说不完！这次运气很好，遇到了三位帅哥！！一位是圣淘沙岛上鱼尾狮塔里的收银员，大家可以在我的相册里看到（当时照得太匆忙，效果不太好。注意帅哥的右手放在哪里）！另两位是我们在英华中学交流时，我所在的那个班里的两个帅哥！一个超帅，一个带点可爱！可惜，照片的兆数太大，无法发到相册上！”
This is what Emma Ma, an exchange student fr Wuhan, gained fr her five days’ exchange experience in Singapore. I don’t want to comment any thing on this.
What are girls looking for? Yeah, 爱美之心人皆有之, and cute guys are really succulent…

Let get sth 酸溜溜.
I watched ShouShenNanNv the day b4 yesterday. And I offered my tears. I m always moved by this kinda “simple love”. The same as 1 litre of tears. I dislike those complicated plays with multi angles relationship. And ppl always confused that was it love or not and whom is ones real love and… Griskin Queen Miss LS said in her space that “her bone” was a chaos with relationships that “分分合合，乱七八糟”. I totally agree and I think she sets an excellent example herself. (Anyway, she is still someone I admire and respect as she is !!!厉害!!!.) Love doesn’t need to be dynamic or vigorous or be in love at first sight. Simplicity is the beauty.
I want him to be surefooted (is this correct?), optimistic and capable. I can set my heart at rest. I think he is reliable. I m not nervous with him. We r comfortable to be together with each other. 付出不觉得吃亏。就是互相照应互相帮助.

The Chinese Version of this post:

2007-09-01

剛才看了瘦身男女。一開始我就哭了。實在很感動。我变单纯了。我最喜欢的爱情是像一公升眼泪里面的那样。

看lshan學姐的博克，看見她寫的失戀心情。她很傷心。雖然我們不是很熟，但是我也還為他感到難過。

她前面還説道骨头那地方，（她是骷髅女王），分分合合，亂七八糟。現在看來的確是這樣的。菜菜那地也一樣。看過去耳濡目染的都是咱們草莓同志的故事，都沒有聼到他們香蕉們有什麽事情。可能是因爲我對於另一種語言不敏感吧。感情實在讓人搞不懂的阿。


那天在圖書館泡了一整天。把那本理論給看完了。有一點相見恨晚的感覺。覺得看書真好。在中國的時候從來就沒有過‘貪婪地吮吸知識的甘露’這樣的感覺。如果我ＩＢ得４５分的话，我愿意把１０％归功于孙邵振教授。８０％ｔｏ　ｍｙ　ｌｏｒｄ。１０％ｔｏ　ｄｅａｒｅｓｔ毛毛和李诠林老师。如果我EE写不好的话，就是被hankokp murder了。虽然不能全怪她，但是她是主要事故责任人，至少要承担80%的责任！

Extraordinary post

Just realized blogger cant change the font for Chinese? I m writing again because I figured out sth thoughtful aft lunch. I think in this post I shall put all those things in.
En...First of all, some guidelines for this blog. Very likely I might keep it for a long time as it looks so nice. Hence I must treat it well. Errr, no rubbish allowed. And I shouldnt copy and paste whole chunks of stuff. If the post is in Chinese, then the language should be polished first.

Then comes some sermons. I must work hard!!! Every single test must be treated seriously as later the teachers will write me recommendation letters and give out predicted grade. If I cant be a intelligent student, at least I have to let them think that I m sort of hard working. I wont suffer any losses to fight hard. Quote from a CUUSer: "苦能让自己真实的感受到自己的努力和进步。在艰苦的日子里，我要在深夜里自我陶醉，享受这份奋斗，享受一点点地进步。" I once found that burning the midnight oil was quite a 有情调的thing. Another quote:"想要人前显贵，就得人后受罪!"
Die Die Must Mug! MUG才是王道！

Now, present to you Master 鲁迅's 串串编.
I ve experienced the high sch entrance exam. I was really stressed out back then. After e exam, I really cant tell thats what kinda feeling of relief and relax when I looked at the books and papers piling up as high as myself. How did I get through all these? 抉心自食，欲知本味。創痛酷烈，本味何能知？痛定之後，徐徐食之。然其心已陳舊，本味何又知？
O-level, sit down under cruel reality. 呜呼呜呼，我不愿意，我不如彷徨于无地！Just let it become history, theres no use keep complaining abt it. 过去的生命已经死亡，我借此知道它曾经存活；死亡的生命已经朽腐，我借此知道它还非空虚。"Don't cry because it is over. Smile because it happened."
Never frown, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
Today is Sep 1st, some of my middle sch schoolmates have left for colleges and brand new lives. Some are packing, preparing to leave. Some have chosen not to leave. Some are forced to stay on. Wish them all the best.在白纸罩上的小青虫……默默地敬莫这些苍翠精致的英雄们。
Am I left behind? I have to carry on. 孤独的战士。留下我这棵枣树，要伸出枝干默默地铁似的直刺着奇怪而高的天空，直刺着天空圆满的月亮……（他）举起了投枪！在无物之阵中大踏步走。
Because I have my dreams. （他知道）小粉花的梦，秋后要有春；（他知道）落叶的梦，春后还是秋。

My goal, at this stage, is to become a high sch graduate that is welcomed by AOs. Quote another paragraph from CUUS then. I really wish I am able to say all these one and half years later, when I get my offer and FA from my dream sch. "当我刚出现在cuus的时候，觉得这里的空气是实在是太窒息。每个ID后面都隐藏着一个怎样炼成的人物啊。感觉自从自己认识自己之后，生命中的大部分时间都荒废了就这样仰视着前人，等到自己变成前人的时候，发现自己还是自己，还是普普通通的，经常犯晕，经常让别人BS，完全没欲望欺负别人。然后，在这里，我就胆大妄为，自以为是的将这种模式推广到cuuser上面。一年一轮回的造神运动也不过如此，劳其筋骨苦其心志，每个人多少都变了，但还是这个人，也迷茫，也犯晕，只不过是站在地球的另一边了。"

It has become so long already. At frist I planned to write some more sour stuff. Now I think it is better to leave it for my next post. Coming soon: something on love and marriage.

OPENING

HEY! New Blog!
Bcz I found blogspot is quite handy n convenient. Easy to upload pic n download loads of beautiful ready-made templates from the net. n it s fast to open a page (unlike msn space which would take ages for every move. Slower than my dear pO pO KEr!) No wonder nearly all Singaporeans use blogspot... altough it seems that sometimes the site might be banned by China govt, it doesnt matter as i think i will write in eng for most of e time.
yeah, facebook. Recently, facebook, an ingenious time-killer invented by Harvardians, becomes so popular among us (ppl I know).
At 1st got an invitation fr LJ then read abt several articles n news on that. Finally, I registered. Hehe...
Does this show that I m a little bit closer to - a bit more like- errr- a US undergraduate?
Now, it is Sep holiday. My plan is to mug n mug. Wish me for e best that I can carry it out. Kay? God bless.